I survived

Well, I survived the day.  When Scott and I arrived at UNC they called us right back and hooked me up to an IV.  But an hour later, I had to go to the bathroom!  The doctor didn't come in till another half hour later.  But apparently it only took a half hour to take the screws out.  They had to cut inside my mouth and outside.  And I was asleep the whole time, thank goodness!  Apparently I said some things I forgot, some embarrassing things, in front of Scott.  But they gave me my screws and scheduled me to come back next week for stitches removal.  I also have pain meds and antibiotics to take.  I have spent most of the day laying on the couch resting and dozing off and on.  I started feeling pain about 4 hours after we got home.  I had to eat soup for lunch and dinner and the next few days I can only eat soft food.  My jaw is sore and the area where he cut is sore, muscles and all.  But inside, I don't feel a thing.  I guess that's one advantage of being numb still.  Scott has done a good job taking care of me.  He has definitely earned a few brownie points.  I am a bit scared about sleeping tonight, if I roll over on my face accidentally, it will probably wake me up from the pain.  Anyway, thank you for the prayers, and maybe tomorrow I'll post a picture of my screws.

Another milestone

Well, in two days I'm going to have my bottom right screws out.  I'm trying not to think about it much because I'm scared.  Yes, I'm scared of a little cut after all I went through.  But I was unconscious when it happened last time.  This time I'll be awake.  My hope and prayer is that it will work.  I'm so tired of not having feeling in my tongue, my face.  I'm tired of the pain.  I'm tired of having food on my face or in my teeth and not knowing it.  I just want to feel normal again.  The cold that I've had the last few weeks has been minor torture.  Every time I blow my nose (which runs nonstop), it forces tears out of my tearducts, which in turn makes my eyes red and irritated.  I'm just tired of it all.  And there seems to be no end in sight.  The other night, at my brother in law's birthday, a family friend mentioned that she never got her feeling back after jaw surgery.  Is that going to be me?  Will my face be this way?  I knew that there might be spots, but not half my face and mouth.  I just keep pushing off the thoughts, because if I let myself think about it, I get overwhelmed and depressed.  Well, enough of the depressing words.  Please say a prayer for me and the doctors.  That's all for now.

Sick

I've got a little cold or something.  Scratchy sore throat and super exhausted all the time.  Not sleeping too well for the last week, either. 
So, here is the update on my braces.  I went to my orthodontist last Thursday.  I was ready to have a little sit down talk with him and convince him of the importance of getting my braces off in time for my wedding.  But, he was on the ball this time and told me that he would have them off, he knew it was important, and set the date for the end of September.  So I go back in 4 weeks, I guess get molds made for my retainer, and get them off a few weeks later.  I want to be excited, but since everything has been "oh, we need more time" or "no, its going to take longer" I don't want to get my hopes up.  But next time I go, if he tells me for sure the next appointment is it, I'm calling my dentist to schedule a teeth cleaning for that very day!  (Possibly even a whitening)  I cannot wait!  It seems like its getting harder and harder to deal with my braces and mouth issues.  Before, I dealt with it because, well, I didn't have a choice and I knew it would take a while.  But now its just anticipation that there may be light at the end of the tunnel.  I keep imagining how nice it will be to run my tongue over my teeth and feel the smoothness, to not be afraid of (or annoyed by) food being stuck in my braces.  And even though I'm still numb and can't open my mouth wide at all, I will feel like one more hurdle has been climbed and is behind me now.  So, the timeline is:  Screws out August 26, Orthodontist Sept.2, Braces off around Sept. 30. 
As far as wedding stuff, I don't know how I'm keeping up with it all, but somehow I'm managing.  Scott and I went to visit my aunt Debbie this weekend to talk about the cake.  She happened to have made some cake for someone else's wedding so she let me and Scott sample.  Last week I dropped off my grandma's wedding band to be repaired and cleaned.  They called a little bit ago to say it was in.  I'm so excited to get to wear it again.  Aunt Debbie told me that she thought grandma would really like knowing I was going to wear it on my wedding day. 
Yesterday afternoon, Scott's car broke down while he was running to grab some dinner.  He had to get it towed.  Turns out, it is totalled!  Apparently the timing belt broke and everything in the engine is bent and broken now.  It didn't have enough miles to break already, but was about 6000 miles past the warranty.  So we may be car shopping this weekend, bleh.  Poor guy.  It's just one thing after another with him it seems (first his house having issues, now his car). 
Ok, I'm going to go get the ring now, can't wait any more!